The first few months of this year I had a plan. Oddly enough, it wasn’t really a plan towards my photography career. Well, it was and it wasn’t. I wanted to move to New York, but not as a photographer. I wanted to become a higher position in my day job in order to just be able to move up north. My husband wants to study culinary so I thought it would be a good opportunity for him as well. Then I thought about pursuing photography while I was up there.
I’ve had to ignore photography a bit because in order to get this new position, I have to get a license that I have to study for. I started studying but I really just hate it. It seems so counterintuitive. I’m not a financial person. I’m a creative. My strengths are music and visual arts. What the heck am I doing in the financial world? How do I expect to get better at fashion if I’m not even shooting it. I had to stop lying to myself. I’m not ready to move yet. I have nothing to show. My portfolio is so weak.
If I went to NY as a financial person, that’s where I’d stay. And I’d be just as miserable but in a new city. I still want to move. Jax is not a fashion market by any means, but I just don’t know where yet. I admire high fashion, but I don’t know if it’s my style. To be honest, I haven’t found my style yet. I look at my instagram and it doesn’t say ‘fashion’. It says I’m a family photographer. Which, even though I do enjoy family shoots, I’m not conveying the right image. I wouldn’t hire me if I was an agency or clothing line. I have nothing to show. My work is scarce and it’s time to change that.
I really love swimwear, so that’s what I’m starting with. I know that’s not fashion in its truest sense, but that’s where I’m starting. So I have swimwear shoots booked every weekend starting mid-April. I can’t expect to find my style if I’m not even shooting to find out. So, my motto for the rest of the year – JUST SHOOT!